Watched "My sister's keeper" yesterday.. V gd show.. But it is v deep and brings out so many issues.. One thing that struck me the most is that sickness is very scary! Haha, i started questioning why must there be sickness in this world... a very close friend of mine is battling with a serious illness... when i hear her share her sturggles, sometimes i really don't know how to react... it is just so hard...

But on the way to church today, i felt this very deep peace in my heart and felt that i need to just focus on God and hold on to nothing else but Him.. Indeed God is the one and only constant.. To trust His goodness cuz His love never fails...

I guess we all go through tough times.... down times... Hmm, learning to try to see the big picture... to let go if need be... to press on should it be necessary.. and to trust and just follow God.. sounds cliche but it is v true! but,... not easy!!

Need to learn to pray more. To lay hold of God...

My assignments are due these few weeks... And exams are coming up in less than a mth! haha... Am i stressed? I dont know... Maybe! But i know i need to keep at it and not give up...

Shall go do my assignment! Thank God, deadline was extended by one week! God is good! :)

Am feeling like how goofy feels now... haaa... =P

just some thoughts

the recent spate of natural disasters makes me wonder quite a bit… what’s happening…? What is God trying to tell us? It’s shocking and heart-wrenching to read the news of people so close to us being so hard-hit by the disasters.. Though many survive the disaster, they are displaced from their homes and there is so much inconvenience caused… for many, life has to start from ground zero again… literally… hmm…

Pardon me for blogging this at work, just need to pen down these thoughts in my mind…

*smile*

hehe. very happy.. =P a counsellor at a school we work with just gave me a very nice compliment! Hee... really makes me feel so happy! haha.... So thankful for it!

hehe.... But need to be humble and not let this get to me! Just very thankful for it! It's really a great way to start a monday morning!! hehe...

Thank u Lord!

Jiayou frens! =P

Soar on wings like Eagles

Hello!

It's 10.55pm on a sunday night and i really can't believe the weekend is over- so soon! haha... seriously!?!? oh man!

actually, a lot of thoughts these days... but as i start to type here, actually dunno what to write!! haha.... it's funny...

Anyhow, just something to share, just received this in my email !


Isaiah 40:29-31 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Did you know that an eagle knows when a storm is approaching long before it breaks?

The eagle will fly to some high spot and wait for the winds to come. When the storm hits, it sets its wings so that the wind will pick it up and lift it above the storm. While the storm rages below, the eagle is soaring above it.

The eagle does not escape the storm. It simply uses the storm to lift it higher. It rises on the winds that bring the storm.

When the storms of life come upon us - and all of us will experience them - we can rise above them by focusing our minds and putting our trust in God.

The storms do not have to overcome us. We can allow God's power to lift us above them. (Isaiah 43:2)

God enables us to ride the winds of the storm that bring sickness, tragedy, failure and disappointment in our lives. We can soar above the storm.

Remember, it is not the burdens of life that weigh us down. It is how we handle them.

Hee. Well, i guess it's not easy though, but that's why we need God's help!

Jiayou! Have a blessed week!!!

A kind gesture goes a long way...

I was quite amazed today! I parked, went for lunch with my family but forgot to put coupon! (Actually not forget lah, i was thinking, wouldn't be so suey right, half hour only! haha.) We came back to the van and saw a parking coupon (Still valid) placed below our windscreen wiper! Probably a kind soul who decided to donate his coupon when he saw summon lady coming! Or maybe a driver was leaving already and saw we didnt have coupon! Whatever it is.... wow! It's quite beyond my comprehension! Thank u for ur kindness!! :)

Rested..

Hee... Could leave office earlier today cuz i started the day super early at a school....

and i came home and slept and slept and slept and slept and slept! HAHAAA......


RESTED! HEE!


I woke up to this wonderful dinner....

Yummy tenderloin steak! hahahaaa... whee!! :)

rest if u r tired, but don't quit....

perhaps it's been a long week..

a lot of thots running through my mind..

feeling v v tired.. don't think it's just physically tired, but perhaps a bit..

honestly, I feel like giving up n running away for a month or so... hahaha....... but that's life isn't it, with all the responsibilities and ups and downs....

hmm! got a lesson tmr... it's a struggle between "it's a privilege to teach children" vs "i'm really tired!" haha....

sidenote: actually did I mention that i've been shitting as I type this post? hehehe

leaving toilet now! *grin*

Campaign against......

Fastfood! hahahahaa. It's really addictive and unhealthy! hahaha,,, God, give me the perseverance to stand up against temptation!! HAHAAA... =P

17 again

Haha, went to watch the movie 17 again with some of my cell girls on sunday... enjoyed! haha...

I thot it'd just be a meaningless show (but ok lah, got handsome guy, haha), but turned out it did have some meaning, about cherishing and making the most of your life here and now.. it's ok to have regrets, but don't live in the past, or u'll nv enjoy ur present or look with hope toward ur future..

then i think back about it again, i always felt i enjoyed my teenage years the most.... but here i am now, not that young anymore, but my life is going good! Treasure and make the most of my life, here and now! :)

back to work! :)

Beautiful song from the heart

"O Let the Son of God enfold u.... with his spirit and his love... let him fill your heart, and satisfy your soul.... O Let Him have the things that hold you... and his spirit like a dove.. will descend upon your life and make you whole... Jesus, O Jesus come and fill your lambs... "

As i was buying dinner at amk, there was this lady playing the harmonica for gratuities.. it was such beautiful playing of the song above... i was quite a distance away, but her playing really caught my attention... The song spoke volumes into my soul... I walked over to the lady to make a donation, and as i walked towards her, i couldn't help but notice how absorbed she was in playing.... it was like literally the Son of God enfolded her, and she is just basking in His presence...

Let him have the things that hold you... Let him fill your heart and satisfy your soul....

give thanks, with a grateful heart..

tis' a season that i'm learning and growing to give thanks..

looking around me each day, i know i'm very very blessed already..... cliche as it may sound, the very fact that i'm well and having no physical disabilities is a blessing in itself....

give thanks... with a grateful heart...

Last week in pastor's sermon, he said that when we fix our eyes on Jesus, we know that we are precious.... we have power..... we have purpose...

i thought he summed it up very well with the verse from Hebrews 12:2 - "....the race marked out for us" = designed and laid out specially for you...

Each of us has our own race to run, different goals, differnt struggles, diferent blessings, different giftings..... So i need to trust and rest assured that God who planned my life out for me will continue to give me what i need to fulfil His purpose in me....

Though i do not see it, i need to believe it.... That day i was talking to 2 of my cell members, telling them about faith.. faith is being certain of what u do not see.... haa, i say it so easily, but i was telling them, faith is really extreme! i mean, u don't even see it, yet u r certain of it! wow.... And the bible says too, what is hope if u can already see it... indeed, faith is the basis of it all...

alright, shall go back to work now... hee.... :)

*thinking which phone i shd buy! samsung or LG?* hehehehe.

An Interesting Week...

heehee....What a week!

Started off with a good monday that i managed to clear many things at work, then proceeded to exercise with tng.. during which i almost black-out..... and b4 i knew it, it was 3 days mc for me! hahahaa! apparently food poisoning! oh well, well needed rest!!

My my, i nv knew i had so much water in me till i had diarrhoea man!! hahahaha!! ok ok, i'll spare u the details... hehehehehe....

anyway! we baked some cookies on fri!! hee ...

so artistic right!! hahahahhahahaha...
close up on the ant!! hahahahahahaa....
the butterfly!!

hhahahaa... *beams with pride* hahaha!!

whee..... Thank God I'm well now! but my appetite has shrank considerably... which is not a bad thing! hahahahaha!!

It's a nice relaxing sunday............................. hehe, pls dont end!! hehehe!

Job 6:11 "What strength do I have, that I should still hope? What prospects, that I should be patient?"

Job 11:18You will be secure, because there is hope; you will look about you and take your rest in safety."

Psalm 25:5guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.

Psalm 25:21May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope is in you.

Psalm 31:24Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.

Psalm 42:5Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior

Psalm 71:5For you have been my hope, O Sovereign LORD, my confidence since my youth.

Psalm 71:14But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more.

1 John 3:3Everyone who has this hope in him purifies himself, just as he is pure.

Romans 4:18Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, "So shall your offspring be."

Romans 8:24For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has?

Romans 8:25But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

Romans 12:12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Romans 15:13May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

....pondering....

mid week syndrome?

crow is very very sian................................... hehe...........................

Hmph...........................................

In the Shoes of Jesus (Your Love)

context: there were these 2 nights that i felt so down and disillusioned.. past hurts and failures came back and i felt so down... I cried the first night.... the second night, I cried out to the Lord.. Then all of a sudden, I was brought to scenes of JEsus' life... I felt like I was walking in His shoes... I could feel what he felt, see what he saw...

Indeed Jesus walked where I walk.. I am saddened by friendships; JEsus was betrayed.. Jesus was abandoned by his closest companions... I feel lonely at times; JEsus was alone... I sometimes feel like my problems are overwhelming; The whole world was upon His shoulders....

So i questioned the Lord, how was JEsus able to do it? It made me think, what would Jesus do? How would Jesus feel? As I placed myself in the shoes of Jesus, through the period of betrayal, beatings, hanging on the cross, it was a stark realisation that only one thing remains - my Father's love.. Through it all, Jesus rests in the truth that God the Father is with Him - He sees what is happening and knows what is to come... Above all, God loves him, and that is enough...

In the Shoes of Jesus (Your Love)

Why do I feel this way
What can I do
How can I see Your plans
When will I breakthrough

Lord help me find a way
Reveal to me Your will
Teach me to always ask,
"What would Jesus do?"

In the shoes of Jesus
I know I am God's son
With the Love of my Father
I'm sure I'll carry on
When troubles overwhelm me
When fear grips my heart
I'll know, I'll trust
My Father's Love

Your love..Heals me and forgives me
Your love.. Fulfils my destiny
Your love..Your love overwhelms me
Your love.... I'm loved.

hello!

been thinking a bit today.... contemplating on the way things are.... thinking through the things i do.... work, friends, family, ministry, life....

Well, at this point in my life, i must say that I'm quite tired....

questions that i've been pondering upon and asking the Lord...

Today as i was driving back, this song played:

This song in my heart, this song in my soul
This song I was born to sing
It's Your song of freedom, now I'm free to dance again

I'll sing in the darkness, I'll laugh in the rain
Rejoice in Your love again
It's Your song of freedom, now I'm free to dance again

Your Spirit brings me liberty
Your breath of life has set me free

Chorus:
Jesus, Your love, it lifts me high
Gives me reason to run the race with joy
This song within me, Lord, will bless Your Holy name
Jesus, I'll dance before Your throne
Bring this heavenly sound to You alone
This song within me. Lord, will bless Your Holy name

i cried as i sang along to this song.... Indeed God's love is the reason for me to run this race with joy.... help me to sing in the darkness, to laugh in the rain.... and to know the one true fact that He made me free....

Choose to by happy, crow... Count your blessings.... REmember His goodness....

Hee. sidenote, period's coming real soon. hee.

Bye! :)

God of Miracles

Do u believe that our God provides and is watching over our finances even?

Just last week i went for some treatment as was having a bad toothache. To cut the long story short, total costs was about $1.3K. A whooping huge amount, dun u think!!

....but God provides, in amazing ways.

Just about this time, I am about to receive some payment for some copywriting job i did.. And including the GST credits, I will get exactly $650 into my account.

Yesterday, my dad suddenly told me that he will sponsor half of my treatment......... which is $650!

And it adds up to exactly $1.3K! I do not have to fork out a single cent for it. God blesses in amazingly wondrous ways.

How can i ever doubt His greatness??

GOD IS GOOD!!

Hello February!

Wow, time flies! We're already Mid-Feb...... super fast!!

it's been a good and interesting week. Started the week quite sick.... now much better already! Had an intensive Wed-Fri lessons at this school... I truly enjoyed! Children are really a gift from God.. :)

Hee, had a really bad toothache on wed and thurs.... even had problems falling asleep!! hehe.. so went to see a dentist on fri, apparently it was quite serious!! Affected the nerve... so had to do some root canal treatment thing... hahaa.... and i realise that dentists really earn A LOT !! hahaha!!! i better psycho my child in future to be a dentist!!

Anyway, praise God there's no pain now though dentist warned otherwise.... hee. :)

Fang came over my place to bake on saturday.... was fun!! hehe... fang, must upload the pics k??? hehehee....

spent some time with sara jacq mary and kel on sunday.... :)

And here we are, at the brink of a new week ahead. Am i ready? no, not really.... hehe.... but that's life for u, right? hehehe...

Have a Blessed week ahead!!

Good Morning!

It's monday morning! haha, surprisingly, quite refreshed today!! Okie... ready for the week ahead!! hehe.

I've been richly blessed by the training session over the past weekend. Praise God for speaking through pastor.. It was really, very, very good!

Much more equipped and ready to lead my cell, knowing that God is with me each step of the way..

God is with u too, if u believe! Such peace and confidence when u know the king of kings is guiding u each day...

:)

crow

Good Morning!

a little slow....

Hee.

yes, i know the hooha about the little nonya is already over... but......

I'm addicted to it now!! HAHAa.... my dad bought the dvds.... just finished part one... quite nice leh!! hahahahaa....... shucks..... and there i was laughing at pple who were addicted to it! haaaaa......

*anxiously waiting for my dad to buy part 2*

Afterthoughts about Red Cliff and other stuff..

Watched Red Cliff 2 (Chi Bi) on Sunday.. Haha, that's a show i never thought i would watch! Hahaha... but i must say it is really quite interesting.. And i understood it! So, yes! haha! Anyway.. Just wanted to pen down some thoughts i had during the movie..

1. Plan in advance
When the war begins, you really really need to know what to do, what you had planned, etc.. It is so messy once it starts! No time to think! In the same way, learn to plan in advance and be clear of your plan. Or else, when the situations come, if u are not clear of what to do, you might act irrationally..

2. Be Flexible
Even if you had planned, learn to be flexible and act according to situations.. Know and accept that situations do change..

3. Learn to Take a step back and think before acting
I like Zhu Ge Liang's character in the show.. He is smart, in control, yet has so much peace.. He knows how to "relax" when everyone else is just getting stressed about it.. Take a step back and seek the Lord.. Seek His wisdom..Before acting...

Just some thoughts that crossed my mind as i watched the show.....

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anyway! I've packed my room, and it is really VERY neat now!! So happy to be in my room! ahahaha... anyway..... as i packed my room, i also tidied all my things... I found some precious notes we had during team meeting! Been re-reading "Drawing Near" by john bevere.. Exerpts of it that we photocopied out and del shared during team meeting...

Passion for His Presence
"(Talking about the ISraelites) They are happy and thankful as long as God is doing what they want and unhappy whenever God isn't doing what they want when they want it. Their core motivation is evidenced by their behavior and words under pressure; it's all abou them. They elevate their desires over His heart or presence".

"Don't take things and face with your own strength.. Ask the Lord "What do you want me to do?

What is your core motivation? It will mark what you do everyday.

Have peace in God..

Is your core motivation to be in God's presence always? Do you hunger for who God really is?"

*Learning to make my core motivation to be in the Lord's presence and to walk with Him each moment of each day*

God bless,
Crow

14 january.... 2009.... (still not used to it being 2009 yet..)

*tired* hehe... it's not even midweek??? Hahahaa... can't believe how long this week is.... haha...

Had a good time today with sara, mary tan and melvin. just a simple supper at chomps..

very tired now!

will update again....

9 January 2009..

Just 9 days into the new year, yet it seems so much longer!!

Well, i thank God it's been a good year so far.. hmm, many thoughts still in the process, no concrete plans yet... mm... taking each day as it comes and praise God for the pleasant surprises each day :)

As many of u know, i'm planning to take up a graduate diploma in social work.. if i get it, will start school in august... part time studying... so will still be working as per normal... well, a little worried about coping, yet i feel that i just have to push myself.. Hmm, His grace is sufficient for me..

learning each day what it means to live simply.... well... i don't know... today, as i saw del, emmanuel and dennis holding hands and just walking along happily, it just stirred up something in me... (no lah, not to get married lah, haha...) hahaa... perhaps about contentment... and a pure trust..

it's 1.37am in the morning and i;m still not sleeping! Oh no!! HAhaa... Stop rambling on and on, crow! Good Night!! :)

Yes Man

back from lunch early, so decided to blog a bit about a show i just watched a few days back - Yes Man!

Good show! Basically, it's about this guy who was getting nowhere in life, who attended a "Yes Man" conference and entered a covenant to say Yes to every opportunity that steps in to his life... Through it he encountered things that he never did, learnt things he never thought he would and met many new people.. At the end of it, he learnt that it's not just about saying yes to everything... it's about opening yourself to the many options and opportunities that life presents to you, yet still having the choice to agree/disagree to them....

For me, what struck me most was that i think many times i do not recognise and snap opportunities.. Many times these opportunities just go pass me.. Perhaps out of nua-ness, maybe due to myself being to comfortable at status quo...

Learning to say YES to opportunities that come my way - opportunities to learn, to give, to meet, to grow.... :)